I feel

Nothing.

Is there such thing as soul mates or true/real/everlasting love for that matter?

as in this moment I don't feel heart broken.

I wish I had never fallen in love with you. I hate myself for it. What the fuck happened. My life keeps getting more and more complicated with each passing day. I hate where I live, I hate my step father, but most of all I hate that I love you. goodbye.

last night

I really wanted to die.. I have no worth, no job, hardly any friends, things would be easier without me, I hate where I live, I hate most of the world and their petty issues and I hate money.. I feel like a huge burden. my eyes well up with tears all day long. It hurts to live lately. I still wanna die.