I always listen to portishead in the winter, it seems fitting for some reason.
Winter to me has a sad eerie feeling to it, I always become depressed for no real reason at all. My Brain, likes to pretend things are worse than they really are. I space out and come up with false scenarios in my head and sometimes believe them to be true. I get so angry with myself afterwords and it dampers my mood....I do not understand it.
I need more things to do.
I need a job.
I need my own place for Maelay and I.
I need to feel worth something to myself and others.
I need some friends. good ones.
I need these bad feelings to go away. yep.
you have good friends XO
ReplyDeletebut i know EXACTLY what you mean.
winter is the worst for a lot of us.
but it's not forever and me and you need to remember that. <3
see you sundayadyad