Drowing in a sea of thoughts

Drowing in a sea of thoughts

Thursday, January 13, 2011

spewing feelings.

I always listen to portishead in the winter, it seems fitting for some reason.
Winter to me has a sad eerie feeling to it, I always become depressed for no real reason at all.  My Brain, likes to pretend things are worse than they really are. I space out and come up with false scenarios in my head and sometimes believe them to be true. I get so angry with myself afterwords and it dampers my mood....I do not understand it.
I need more things to do.
I need a job.
I need my own place for Maelay and I.
I need to feel worth something to myself and others.

I need some friends. good ones.

I need these bad feelings to go away. yep.

1 comment:

  1. you have good friends XO
    but i know EXACTLY what you mean.

    winter is the worst for a lot of us.
    but it's not forever and me and you need to remember that. <3

    see you sundayadyad

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